Well, time keeps slipping away.
Time here is going more slowly for one than for others.
Heather is still face-down on the floor. I wish it were only in worship of our Lord and Savior. Unfortunately, her back is still a constant measure of how much a body can move and how little effort it takes to make you say Ouch!
She heard from the doctor's office today - the MRI shows a huge herniated disc, and they are referring her to an neurosurgeon. OUCH!! I can tell you that the neurosurgeon is the one place Heather has been doing everything she can to avoid . I have watched for hours as she does her best to lay still, stay stiff, learn to sleep on her stomach, endure jaw pain from clenching her teeth, contort into strange shapes in order to do excersises she never thought of before, and take medication that she would rather avoid...all in order to avoid going. What a compliant patient! What an awful progression.
As awful as this is, I am so glad that she is here with me. I get to serve her. I get to comfort and pray with her. I get to find little things to bring a smile to her face. I get to surf "MySpace" and see what delights her imagination. I get to be here...with her. My daughter. My friend. My treasure. She isn't far away "across the pond." She isn't across the country or even across the street. She's here with me. I get to give back a piece of the care that she has always lavished upon me when I have been down. I get to serve.
So, I will be thankful. Even though I would rather she be healed. NOW.
I will pray. Even more.
I will count every moment as a gift.
I will watch time slip away, and spend it as wisely as I can.
2 comments:
Oh Cindi, I am awed by your ability to wait patiently on God. I too would be praying (not that I'm not now) if I were her mom, but there would be a huge amount on hand wringing going on as well.
Poor Heather Pear. We need to get that girl's night going, especially since it was her idea. Just let me know when as I am free most evenings except Weds. (bible study).
I feel blessed just have you two as friends, you both are such testaments of faith and patience.
What a humbling yet wonderful way to spend time, though I wish it could be a little easier for Heather. I'm praying that the whole neurosurgeon thing isn't as bad as it sounds.
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